Trying so hard...

I spend so much time trying so hard to be what I have set to be for other people. The smile they need when they're having a.bad day, the laugh they want to share, the happiness they're missing, the friend, the sister, the girlfriend, and the daughter they are looking for. I am so content and at peace with all of those things until I search deep for the smile of my own I need when I'm having a bad day, the happiness I am missing from my own life, and the person I want to be, for me. What road am I meant to travel, who is meant to come along and in my journey if I am so empty, how am I suppose to genuinely give allof these things to those that I love the most?? I am trying so hard to be a better girlfriend because I fall short every single day, I am trying hard to be a great friend and a loving sister but everyday feel like I am failing miserably. I need to try hard being me... but I am so scared of losing... losing this unknown battle of emotions and outcomes... I need some guidance, some direction, is anyone out there?