Day 1

The 30 Day Facebook Photo Contest. I think this is a good idea but more fitting for my blog than my Facebook. So here it goes and I apologize in advance if I take a couple days to post. I guess that means I fail at the contest part yet I hope you still find it interesting nonetheless.

{Post a photo of yourself and list 10 things about you}

1. I love travelling and somehow manage to do so even if I don't have a penny to spend frivelously. Not the best idea most times but definitely worthwhile.

2. I am actually not a bandwagon duck fan like most think. I was a fan back when they lost a lot of games and for the record have a lot of friends that go to OSU and only give beaver fans crap with the best intentions in mind.

3. Rachel knows this better than anyone else I know.. I don't like pretzels and will pick them out of chex mix/ gardettos or wherever else these people think to mix pretzels with.

4. I hate cats but I love mine and occasionally others that have a cute and cuddly personality just like I hate kids but love the ones that are smart, listen, and are well behaved.

5. I love planning get togethers and outings but am probably the worst at planning them.

6. I already have most of my wedding planned and I am not even engaged. Oops.

7. Skydiving was by far the best experience of my life second being the x2 ride at six flags. P.s. theme parks are amazing... Disneyland being my favorite. I've been a million times and it will never get old.

8. I am very crafty and hate buying things for people at the store to give as gifts. I also much rather recieve a homemade gifts than store bought ones.

9. I am a sucker for trashy t.v. I don't know why its an addiction for me. I won't think its a problem until I start watching jersey shore and at that point, I will both gouge my eyes out and then seek therapy.

10. Oh, and I LOVE love. If any of you know me... you know how serious I am about this.

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2011... what?

It's 2011 and I have to be honest and say that it feels like my new year started a few months ago. We all like to start the year on a fresh new note and for me, that happened in September.

I still haven't quite figured out why friends come and go as often as they do in my life but I can't say that I am completely devastated by the occurrence either. I look at it as a growth in life... either I am growing and they aren't or in some cases I suppose are the other way around. I have although met some of the most fun, amazing and supportive people at just the right time. I've managed to mend old relationships and just forget about others. And best of all, new friends and old... I am the happiest girl on the planet with those on my life that God has blessed me with. For those of you reading this who I at one point had a falling out with, please forgive me and do know that I think about you often. Id love to be in touch again. And for those of you reading this now that know they are an integral part to my life, thank you thank you so much for all that you are. I am so blessed and can only hope to carry on with our great friendships.

Impeccable is the only word that comes to mind in regards to my relationship with Aaron. I know I have said this a million times before but I fall in love with him more and more every single day. There are no words for how blessed I am to be with someone who without the slightest doubt loves me from the deepest part of his heart, who supports me no matter what and guides me when I'm a bit confused or even times completely lost. If words could come close to express how much I love him, I can't even imagine how they'd sound or what they'd look like.

The more that I grow, the more I am becoming my own person rather than what some people think that I should be or claim to "know" what is best for me. Sure the options of school are out there, the possibility of a great paying job is right in front of me... but what did God have in store for me?? No one knows but right now I am happy with my satisfying job, boyfriend who loves me, family that back me, friends that support me, and the strength that God gives me to turn all the arrows that everyone is pointing for me the other direction.

This year, I look forward to being a wife one day, a mom one day, and in the mean time travel the world and love what I do without caring about the judgements of others. I hope everyone is on board with me to a great 2011, 2012, and the years after to come!!!!

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Blogging when you're upset probably isn't the best idea but I needed to release somehow, somewhere and can't pick out who in specific I should talk to. I am so frustrated right now over something I go back and forth on whether it should even matter to me.... it shouldn't but it does and in the long run, I guess its probably better that I do care and am making a big deal of it. Why is it that when I am at my utmost happiest with something that someone has to do everything in their power to sabotage that happiness?? Does making things awkward and uncomfortable really make you feel like a better person? When you see people that happy, doesn't it make you want to be happy for them and be a part of it too??? I am soooo confused, so let down, and so so frustrated. GRRRR!!!

A word from one of my favorite role models..

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.~Marilyn Monroe

Marilyn Monroe could never had said it better and at this point in my life(and a few others that I could name), I don't think this quote could have been more appropriate for some changes taking place right now. For me, I've always believed that everything happens for a reason and that statement alone almost [in a masked type of way] justifies every situation. But there's so much more depth to that... what is the reason? I think that sometimes not knowing hurts the most... its so gut wrenching and unfair. No matter how much someone tells me nothing has changed and life is just so busy that it only seems different, I don't seem to buy it. People do change and letting go is the only way to understand that the truth of it isn't that life is so busy that things seem different but that they have truly changed. I have a problem with letting go. Sometimes its so easy and the times when its 'for the better', it is so hard. I shouldn't have to let go... everything can be worked out regardless right? False. On the contrary I have most recently found that letting go really does allow for the things that went so wrong to be seen like they hadn't before and for the things that were going right the whole time to shine through. Change is good and only those who fear change are not confident in themselves. I am confident, so bring on the change. I am ready for it.

back on track...

or so I thought I was! I'm back in the work game [FINALLY] and I love my job working at the gym. There is so much motivation around me to stay in shape and maintain a healthy lifestyle. I just took a body analysis today and found out how much fat weight I need to lose and how much lean weight I need to gain. The results were less than impressive and there is much work to be done. I am feeling quite accomplished today... first day of training for the 5k and I'm proud of myself for not wanting to quit. P.S. I. HATE. RUNNING. And ill also be starting classes with resistance training to gain the ton of lean muscle I am lacking. ha. I just have to say I'm blessed with the resources I have to not only find out my health but do something about it! Just wanted to share with everyone. :)) Life is fabulous.

Freshman 15..

Ever heard of it?! Is there such thing as the Summer 30?? We'll just say that my dates at the gym just hit another level of intimacy. It's where I will be spending hours at a time possibly multiple times a day for the next few months. I have hit a point of ultimate disappointment in how I've treated my body and I refuse to be fluffy. I am doing something about it, TODAY!!!

Just thought you all may want to know!! :))))

I apologize to those who may have come to my page for some insight or possibly just a little catch-me-up on what is going on in my life. The break from work has been ever so pleasant I must say... For the first time in a while I can say that I am sad to see summer come to an end here in the next couple of months. I've enjoyed my freedom and peace of mind away from the stress of the corporate world and of course the warm sunshine that FINALLY came around this year.

This summer I decided to take a mental break from almost everything... facebook, alcohol, and a few other things that tend to cause negative energy. I cannot stress enough how good it feels! It has officially been two months since I have drank {aside from a wedding I attended this summer, and for the record, that doesn't count} and a little over two weeks since I have deactivated my facebook account. I feel free. I feel alive. Life is good.

Life is good... and so is God. When you're out of line, he puts you in place and when you're doing the right thing, he rewards you. There was one point in my life where I questioned his existence and authority and I am so happy that I stepped out and found out for ME that he does exist, he is my authority, and that he loves me. I won't elaborate on details, I don't want to bore you but without God, I would be one miserable human being.

I will try to get and blog more with posts that have something to actually talk about. Goals, life stories, adventures etc....